OMG,,,,ROFLCOPTER.

I bet people dont even look at this anymore..if they ever did in the first place lol.

So yeah im sorry for my absence on this blog,its not like I was busy or anything, it was quite the opposite actually, I dont really have anything to say. Hopefully 2010 will be more eventful but I will miss 09. I'm going to be 20 this year...thats weird..and old..and I dont like it haha i'd rather just skip 20 and go straight to 21 at least i'd be able to drink right? lol

Well anyways, its new years, im still up even though I dont really celebrate new years, I just go to sleep later nowadays. How do you celebrate new years? I just see people staying up til 12, getting drunk, lighting fireworks, and ... . But that seems to be what people do for every holiday lol.

So lets see, what else to talk about, oh well I have been somewhat busy working on this giant waterfall my dads making in the backyard. I've been spending my time working and havent talked to any of my friends in about a week. Its really weird to me, I had my phone off for a week but I didnt even get messages from anyone...like come on..one person cant text me...usually 'someone' does but nobody did. Is my phone broken or something? Is your phone broken or something? ..dang lol. Well anyways i'll catch you up on why my phone has been off for a week,it all started when I let my cousin use my computer. I left it alone with him while I went to go do other stuff and when I got back my computer was shutting down and saying that I had tons of viruses. So my uncle took it to clean it out. Without a computer I cant charge my phone so it died and yeah. So my weeks been pretty crappy lol. But my computer is back now and perfectly fine.

Man this blog is making me sound like a boring, friendless loser but maybe thats what I am now :p...hopefully 2010 wont be this way all year :( .

So have a good one and stay safe. I will talk to you soon.
peace love mickey.

Can music really have an effect on you?

This is a question ive been wondering lately well recently lol. I've been listening to a lot of Brett Dennen lately, if you havent heard of him I suggest you go listen to some of his songs preferably

Heaven, San Francisco, Make You Crazy, Blessed, So Far From Me, Ain't No Reason, and There Is So Much More. At the moment my favorite is ain't no reason.

He is a really chill artist that for some reason just makes me really happy. I feel content and have been acting way nicer and letting things go. I'm wondering if its his music or im just changing as a person lol either way its wonderful and I feel proud of myself :p. I'm finally letting go of the fact that friends come and go and I feel more at peace.

We also go the keys to our new house the other day :)

Plus I might be getting a job soon, even though what I really need is a license. Once we get all settled into the new house though I should be able to do that.

Anywayz hope all is well with you.

Bye

P.S. the photos above are of Brett Dennen and they are my own. :)

He was at the jason mraz concert.

when life hands you lemons, throw them at someone.

those are my words of advice to you. lol.

So recently things have been weird, awkward, and somewhat nice. It keeps amazing me how I get unexpected surprises every once in a while.

So I guess ill write about seeing jason mraz even though I can probably sum it up in one word. Amazing. Jason was just as good live as he is on cd or whatever haha. It was all in all a fun concert and I had a good time. :) We also went to the Walt Disney Family Museum while we were up there. That was totally amazing as well. I learned soo much about him and I think he is totally brilliant and creative.

We're moving, hopefully, but even though I want to its really weird for me to leave this small town where I grew up. Even though i wont be far at all its going to be weird not coming back here everyday. I guess ill get used to it but it might be a sad goodbye.

Anywayz. ill try to write again soon. sorry for the short post.

P.S. there is wayyy better pics on my facebook so I suggest you make one to see them.

I randomly chose the pics n they were all the blurry ones haha.

Where's Waldo? :p

Hello McChickens,

I'm here awake since 6 in the morning, watching that 70's show with not a lot to talk about. I have not been up to very much this week, just basically studying and reading, gong to work with dad, and being a bum here at home.

The pics above are from skating in greenfield, hanging at the park, and a decades party that I recently went too. The party was really fun and I had a good time hanging with the guys since I hadn't done that in forever.

This coming weekend will be the only weekend that I actually have open since the 2 weekends after will be busy with concerts. The jason mraz concert is coming up next Friday and im looking forward to that. Sadly this weekend ill probably be at my aunts doing yardwork. My dad is redoing her front yard. :p fun. I'll probably have some funny aiden stories and pictures though so that'll be good.

If you want to see more pics from the party or any of the pics I have you can add me on facebook.

I should update soon, so watch out for it.

My deepest apologies

I am so sorry i've neglected this or you. With one follower and a couple of people I do know that look at this it hasnt really been very motivating lol but I should be writing more. Bad nicole bad!

So ok to update you um yeah thats it. I havent really been up to anything lately honestly. I've been sick with the flu mostly lately. Havent been out in like a week in order to not get others sick and stop the spread of the flu. I'm a lot better right now. Just a little cough left. I took tamaflu which is what you were supposed to be taking in case you had the swine flu. Honestly though the doctors dont seem to be all that worried about the swine flu. Its pretty much just the flu and yeah they didnt even check me for it really, just gave me those pills. Those pills were horrible though, they made me nauseous, gave me headaches, total crap but atleast I am somewhat better.

So I have pretty much done nothing. I have a car now but still no license. (I'm working on it I swear). The car was for free from my fathers boss, which was very nice of him. Its an older lexus w/ some damage but its pretty nice. It needs a new paint job but I love it all the same. I still havent named it lol but maybe later. I've practiced driving in it once but after that I got sick and havent been able to since. Driving is freakin hard, harder than I thought. Hopefully ill get it down soon.

Things im looking forward too right now:

1. driving and license

2.disneyland always lol

3. decades party

4. jason mraz (i recently bought tickets)

5. rascal flatts

6. rob thomas, one republic, carolina liar

Thats pretty much it right now. ill update as soon as something happens lol.

My best wishes to friends of mine who are away in college already or are on their way right now. I will miss you and hope to see you soon. Have fun, but not toooo much fun. :)

"Do you twit?"---Rangel

First day of Hartnell today. Not for me haha since i've decided otherwise but for friends of mine, I hope it went well.
I went to lunch w/ Omar n Melissa today. Felt weird like we should have been in school or something. I had fun just chilling and talking to them. Melissa laughing @ Omar explaining some Harry Potter reference that I made and Melissa asking if omar and I twit..not tweet...twit lol. I've thought about twitter but I know i'll probly be too lazy for updates but we'll see maybe i'll get one haha.


I'm still getting used to the fact that I am grown up I guess even though no one will teach me to drive so im stuck haha. But other than that things are going good. I received an ebay item in the mail today and gots a blizzard , so all in all good day. While walking home I heard the loudspeaker at school w/ the vice principals familiar voice and words, "alright fokes back inside" haha so that kinda threw me into a deja vu sort of thing but its cool. I'm always going to miss high school and the friends that I made there but I think its for the best that we all move on. I don't have to see some people that I dont want to see and shouldnt see so its better for me. Good luck to the little ones I still know in high school. Have fun w/ ur peeps while you can. You will miss it.

Lately ive been kinda worried about teh friend situation. Will friends always find someone or way to replace you. Do we always have to find someone new? Why cant things and people stay the same, we're always scoping for something better. Its human nature yeah but friends should stay friends, no matter what. I know that might be naive but I like stability, too bad it never stays. Too bad friends means only when I have nothing better to do.

Hardest Part- Coldplay

spending deh benjamins

Ebay ugh! I've been spending a bunch on random crap from ebay. haha. I bought a disney watch since my dad broke mine and a random mickey mouse statue that I shouldn't really have cuz it says happy birthday on it lol but that was an accident. After getting frustrated @ the fact that I kept getting outbid I just bid on something random lol. I got outbid a couple of times but finally won. I didn't spend like a lot a lot but 20 bucks or so. I also decided to buy some Grand Theft Auto games because I used to enjoy stealing cars and driving around trying to get the cops to chase you until my mom got mad at me and threw the game away haha.

I've also been buying concert tickets. One for a concert that my dad really wanted to go to. A country/rock band Rascal Flatts in Fresno and I just bought Rob Thomas featuring OneRepublic n Carolina Liar tickets. I got freakin floor tickets for that one. I bought three in case my auntie wanted to go but we'll see how that goes. I also just realized that the concerts are both in the same week so thats going to be loads of fun haha. I'm just really into concerts right now since Coldplay, I wish I could see them again,but I can't :(.

So anyway thats whats up and nothing else. Just skating, going to work w/ my pops, and having tons of awkward moments. Oh and getting psyched for camping in 2 weeks. yee yee.

going to call juan right now then resume writing

so yah things are going OK right now we'll see.

Peace!

Problemos

Well recently I havent been too good. I was wondering why my eyes were hurting and I wasnt able to really focus. Not wearing my glasses or contacts for so long really damaged my eyes. I have glasses now, I like them, and i'll probably be getting contacts soon. The eye doctor pretty much said I really screwed myself. My eyes have gotten a lot worse. 3 years ago they werent too bad but now they are. The amount of pressure my eyes were enduring was at a level of 24, she said the cut off for that should have been 22. If the pressure doesnt go down then shes going to have to take a real look at my eyes and relieve some of the pressure somehow. I'm wearing my glasses ive only had them for a day or 2 but my eyes are still tired and still not able to focus as much as i'd like them to. We'll see what happens. The pressure from my eyes was also causing a lot of headaches and my brain felt like it was basically suffocating. It sucked but that has gone down some.

some pics w/ teh glasses.

blog everyday in august :p eh im not interesting enough haha.

listening to ----show me what im looking for-carolina liar

epic fail restart

Well since I never completed my blog everyday in may I'm thinking of doing it for August. It'll probably be pretty boring but hey I need to do something.

I don't really have any updates besides the fact that my grandpa had heart attack and is recently in the hospital. My cousin on my mommies side had a baby boy and yeah. That incidence of my going to the hospital and seeing my cousin, tellin me my other cousin is in labor, and having my grandpa be in surgery for his heart, really reminded me of that Jack Johnson song If I Could.

I havent been up to much really just bought a skateboard, had a party, and living life. Things always change and im never the same as I was yesterday. Oh well, today was a good day.

Let me know if you think blog everyday in august sounds.

Death And All His Friends-Coldplay

needing to settle

for now im pretty content with where im at, friends, family, well I mean lifewise lol. I'm still totally scared of what I have to do and what im going to do, whatever that should be. I'm afraid of losing my friends and family but thats just how it is now. I'm always scared now but still content for the moment.

I'm having fun right now just living. Not having to really worry about anything until I get my license, job, etc. But yah I think im doing the right thing for me, college, well I just had to think about it for a while and decided it just really wasnt for me. I don't want to waste my time anymore on things that wont even matter in the end. I need to enjoy who and what I have right now and just do things that are right for me.

Always trying to live up to your friends, family, and teachers standards just isnt going to cut it in the end. I always thought that yeah I would be the one to go to college, try to get a high paying career but thats really only because my friends and teachers were pushing me to do so. I never once really asked myself, hey nicole is this what you want. When really is isnt. I've always just wanted to be happy with friends and family around not striving to be materialistic and after money or a pretentious standing. Just be happy.

So im going to do whats right for myself and just live my life. A lot of people are not really a part of my life anymore but im okay with that now.

sorry for the rant.
peace.
"when the truth is I miss you"- Coldplay

Sorry its been so long.

I honestly am sorry. I've been pretty busy lately for a change. Hanging with the guys and just living life. I'm not sure if they read this, I know Thomnus does sometimes lol but thats about it.

We went to go see Coldplay and it was totally awesome. Wish we had some close seats up front but it was cool nonetheless. I forgot how much I really enjoyed and love concerts. I havent been to any in so long. Nothing like those immature shows you go to, where you stand around, listening to people scream, and getting the crap beat out of you and what not. I'm glad I grew out of that dumb phase.

I can honestly say im pretty content right now. Except for the fact that I woke up yesterday with a HUGE cold sore,minus the cold and my neck being sore/hurting in a weird place. I have no idea why. Might get my necked checked out if it doesnt get any better. The cold sore is going away but still looks pretty disgusting. :p and I have to go to a party tomorrow and by Have to I mean im being forced but w/e.

Gotta get ready to go clean with my aunt. I think she just wants to go chill at the river but im glad she offered to help me clean the cabin area for our party on the 25th. yee yee. I love the river and being out there. It makes me miss my mom though,seeing as that is where she grew up and where my grandparents live. I usually sit by the river and imagine my mother playing there as a young kid and the stories she used to tell me when I was younger. God I miss her.

Talk to you guys later.
Peace.

Lost-Coldplay

boredom blog on the 4th

Yeah so I havent really blogged in a while and im sorry. I honestly dont really have anything to write about. I've only had one good idea that I am going to write about but not today. I decided to write down or tell the story of what I remember from my moms passing. Not for you but so if I ever do feel like I forget things...I can read it. Writing really does let me be myself, honestly, and I can write better than I speak lol.

Well its the fourth of july and im kinda worried my house is going to catch on fire. The weeds in the backyard are taller than I am. So I pretty much packed up my clothes and whatever else I find valuable lol. It was pretty easy since most of my stuff is packed anyway. Im here alone because my dad didnt want to hang today I guess. :( bummer

Might go to my aunts later, watch fireworks or something.

But im gonna be perfectly honest, I dont feel like myself. Recently I just havent feel right. Idk whats wrong but its just wrong lol. Hopefully things will get better but I guess its sort of been that way since my mom did pass away. I feel detached from most people. Like when I went back to school I thought I would go back to normal but I really wasnt, it was never so present to me than when we went to Disneyland on grad nite. I just thought to myself, I don't feel right with these people, don't fit in somehow, even though I had known them most of my school life. idk it was really weird. Even at graduation I wasnt sad,like at all, I knew I would miss some people but I didnt really feel anything except being proud.

I've been reading a lot finished 3 books in less than a 2 weeks. Pretty crazy.


listening to: 3 cheers for 5 years-mayday parade

funny story/other things I feel like talking about that dont really make sense lol

Went to the Transformers premiere yesterday with mr.thomnus n tina. we were all pumped at a good scene in the movie when the screen went black and it looked like the reel of film was desintegrating (spelling). The guy comes out and tells us the reel fell on the floor. The random guy behind me yells, "Well pick it up then" lol. I thought I had accidentally fallen asleep during the movie cuz the reel looked pretty weird when it looked like it was being eaten away or something. so they gave us a free pass and we went home. unsatisfied with the fact we didnt know what happened in the end.

So yah on another note ive been thinking a lot about friends and the people I consider my friends a lot lately and i've realized how many people i've had and lost over the years. The majority of them being female. So that got me thinking about how I don't consider a lot of girls right now to be my best friends, pretty much none. except for like a handful. Guys are just plain easier to be friends with. Girls are all drama all the time. Pretty much why the only other chick friends I do have are pretty mellow and can take a joke. not to sensitive and chill. I'm happy with the friends I do have right now but mad cuz some of the ones I lost were really important to me. Friends really do come and go but i've always been one for consistency. I like people to either 1. not be a part of my life or 2. be constant. dont give up on me and just to always be there..

So basically if I try to talk to you or I respond to you talking to me then your a friend cuz otherwise I won't even bother with you. Done with losing people or having them leave.
so yah just a rant about that kinda shtuff.

listening to Twin Chevron Action Flash (Remix) - by Sabrepulse

P.S. WHEN DID I TURN INTO AN ADULT THAT HAS TO MAKE LIFE DECISIONS!
oh and one question. is it conceited to make ur own invitations to a party for youself?

gettin better/life decisions

I was feelin sorta sick this weekend :( but today seems better.
I've been thinking about school and what not and how I really don't want to go back. I feel sorta just done with school. My cousin, real estate agent, always teases me about how I should get my license and sort of be his assistant. I'm thinking about talking to him seriously about that offer. I think it might be the right way to go. I'll work with family, work wont be stressful, ill get some driving skills, and flexible working situations. I'm gonna think about this a bit and then approach him.

I've also been thinking about my friends and who I consider my real friends and how much my perspective about friends has changed this year.

oh well.

i'm not to sure about summer

summer so far...since I got back on monday has been horribly boring. Idk I like my solitude and having time to myself but its a little too much right now.
To my laptop,
im so glad I have you and that you're in my life. you are simply amazing.
love,
me

love letters to ur comp FTW!

hopefully this weekend will be better and maybe ill go see year one tomorrow.
for now ill just go play rockband and yeah try to survive.
the sound of the washer and dryer finishing just rang so thats my que to jet

what's playing; lonely day - system of the down
perfectly fits right now haha how sad

new blog

I have now graduated. :( Class of 09"

update about gradnite...it totally sucked. Had fun with Omar but idk the trip just wasnt right for some reason. I just didnt have fun.

Graduation was cool and yeah lol my family surprised and tricked me so im at Disneyland while im typing on one of my other new gifts. :)

Disneyland was fun today. We're gna have dinner at 8 but right now im just relaxing with a jamba juice wishing I never had to go home and face the fact that im done with a certain part of my life. It's going to be weird going back and not going to school. I'm going to miss everybody, some more than others, and my teachers, some more than others lol.

so im going to drink my bananaberry jamba and hope that somebody I want to talk to will get my subliminal messages and text me.

good night and much love,

graduate of 09' Nicole Maureen Recio the 7th lol jk.

grad nite and grad things/updates

im blogging at seans so this will probably be deleted or something.
Aiden is back in the hospital. Theres alot of things wrong with him and they actually dont know whats causing it. he started having headaches and one of his eyes is lazy with the pupil being smaller as well. last friday my aunt took him for a checkup and he stopped breathing he was rushed to stanford and has been there ever since. its kinda scary since they have no answers as to why this is happening.

we're having grad practice and its just long and boring. seans my partner and we're in the front :p. sum people behind us are annoying and our grad song is going to suck.

disneyland tomorrow :) whooo!! hopefully we all have fun for the last time lol jk.

i have a headache.

sean and amos are singing bon jovi livin' on a prayer for guitar hero world tour right now so thats WHAT IM LISTENING TO. eww! lol jk.

cookies?

love ya bye

#28 or 29th idk lol.

I am blogging from my school library. yeah im that desperate for a computer now. 

powerpoint presentation went pretty much horrible. our computer wouldnt project onto the screen and are grade wasn't so hot. im disappointed.

I got some awards yesterday and one scholarship. woot woot.

bullying project is pretty much done all that is left is to put in the title and credits...bloopers are optional lol.

omar is sitting next to me reading this as I type. Lorena is a hoebag for today.

Aiden is now at home :D yay!!!

i'll blog when I can

OMAR GIVE ME YOUR LAPTOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LET ME BORROW THAT LAPTOP!!!!!!

#25blogging at olive garden

i'm tired. i has peach tea. short entry.

aiden is doing good. yep

done

technically day 20 something but now its day 24

My computer is dead so now I am using my cousins laptop. I'm pretty sure my computer was killed by a virus. dang limewire :( :p

I am right now on my way to Stanford to see my cousin Aiden. His heart surgery went very well and everything seems to be going pretty good so far. :)

im going back up tomorrow too so I might be able to blog then.

I want to go see Terminator.

Nothing much to say really. been pretty busy trying to get my computer to work. had fun hanging with the guys all day yesterday :).

Talk to you when I can :)

#21 Quick Update

Before my computer once again crashes. Idk how much longer I could keep this stupid thing running...im going to give you a quick update.

Projects:
Bully video: I have edited all of the clips and they are logged into the computer. all thats left is piecing them together, adding music, etc.
Powerpoint: We had our practice presentation today and we did pretty good. I hate speaking. We got +8 which is the highest so far.

Those are the major projects but I have another little one on the side.

Aiden's surgery is tomorrow. I'm going to try to explain (from my knowledge and what I understand..im no doctor) what is wrong with the little guy. His vein circulating the blood through his lungs runs the wrong way and pumps blood back into his heart. therefore his heart is working extra hard causing it to stretch. One of his lungs isnt receiving blood so therefore its not working. he has a hole in his heart. and one of the arteries is too small the other is kinked. That is from what I remember and sort of understand. I could be wrong. From what ive heard there going to do 2 surgeries on him tomorrow. I'm sick so im not sure if I should go or not. I feel a lot better but I don't want to get him sick. I really want to go though just in case. Im still debating on this.

My chest is tight and im stressed out :(.

OY

whats playing: Lost-Coldplay

# 20 No more sickness please :(

I need to get over my cold pronto. If I don't I don't think i'll be able to go to the hospital when Aiden has his surgery and that would break my heart.

My computer is still shutting down. :(
I want a laptop.

I had a lot more planned for this blog today but as the my computer kept shutting down I lost all of my ideas lol.

OY!

I think im going to go watch the American Idol finale cuz the computer is just pissing me off and idk when its going to shut down again. :p

Random tidbit:
I still act like im in 8th grade sometimes with no powers at all. According to this text from a friend of mine I do have power lol - "you are nice..but i still think its part of your conspiracy to make underclassmen miss you"
haha I thought that was kind of adorable lol.
I will be missed *gasp*

What's playing: nothing or the computer might shut down lol
song in my head: Waking Up In Vegas- Katy Perry - we were listening to it 6th for some reason.

#19 computers suck and my throat hurts :(

My computer is now randomly shutting off. So i'm going to write this blog and hopefully it won't shut off right in the middle of me typing :(

I feel sicky. My throat is scratchy. I think I have bronchitis or strep throat because I heard that was going around.

I came home for 3rd and 4th period since i'm just a TA for those periods and I rested for a bit and made myself soup.

I found a piece of chocolate cake when I got home from school today. SCORE!

I'm thinking of how moving is going to effect me. I'm not sure how its going to be. Having been in Gonzales my whole life moving seems like it could change everything I know. Oh well, life goes on.

Buy me a laptop yeah?

What's playing: Close-Rascal Flatts
OY I like break-up songs
It's just another simple voice mail message
I'll pick you up and we'll do dinner by the fire
And we'll just watch it snow
It's from a year ago
Baby I love you and I can't wait to see you tonight
I've been thinking 'bout you all day long
She pushes nine to save
She still can't erase

Cause it makes her feel close
Makes her smile it's like he's with her almost
Till the tears take over she's still in hell
But she tells herself she's ready to let him go
Cause that makes her feel close

It's just a worn out Notre Dame t-shirt ( I have one of those lol buts its MINE)
She's gotten mad and tried to throw
That thing away at least a hundred times
But she's got it on tonight
He used to wear it on the weekend just running around
Why he forgot he even left it behind
She says it keeps her warm
Oh, but it's so much more

Just sayin' goodbye
Getting on with her life
Maybe give love another try
One more try

#18 Nicole is amazed at how good home-cooked food is

School was boring. I felt melancholy all day. I didn't get to have lunch :(

I think im catching a cold. :(
Filmed the last shooting scene of our bully movie today!!! OY!
Went to work on my powerpoint today with Seanzie. I barely got home at nine so we working non-stop. Well kinda, we stopped to eat. I finally got to eat a home-cooked meal which I havent had for a while. It tasted awesome. I also realized how Sean's mom kind of reminds me of how my mom was a bit. But I wasnt sad. Sara kinda distracted me...texts & oatmeal chocolate chip cookies FTW!

My throats scratchy and my nose is a bit runny. I've had so many colds this year its not even funny :(

Swine flu? *gasp*

What's playing: I Don't Want To Be Me- Amanda Clemens

#17 The opposite of how I used to be

These days I find myself ignoring my phone more and more. I still enjoy texting people from time to time but I'm not even close to the way I used to be about four years ago. Summer is coming up pretty quick and that usually makes me think of how much I have changed since THAT summer. I basically ignored and resented most of my family and spent nearly all of my time on the phone. I hate myself for that but I can't change that past I can only change myself.

I now spend more time with my family and just enjoy relaxing with them. Today, we went up to Big Sur after we took our car in for fixing (the problem wasnt even fixed :p). We all totally pigged out. I'm so fullll. :(

I'm getting really psyched for the summer and the different possibilities I have for the future and the time im going to have. I no longer really have to schedule my life around school. Or required school lol.

So Thomas has suggested I do a blog everyday in June...hmmm...your opinions? I'm not sure these blogs are even interesting now so I don't think June blogs will be anymore exciting lol.
But let me know what ya think.

Love yous
Nicole

what's playing: The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows- Brand New

#16 2 year old and very hot weather

Stupid blog...makes me mad sometimes. I accidently wrote the title and pressed enter. Ok, yah that sounds like my fault but w/e :p.

Anyways, my day was spent hanging out at my aunt and uncle's new house. I was supposebly the designated babysitter but I never signed up for that job so therefore I didnt do a very good job. I played with him a bit but mostly just sat around and let him do whatever he wanted. Hey, its what I wanted everyone to let me do when I was younger so why not let my cousin have what I didnt, right?

He took my starbucks so I took it away from him. He threw a tantrum. I laughed. I found it really funny and made me think of how funny I probably looked doing that when I was little.

He's a pretty funny kid though. For example, he took my dads car keys and money and ran outside. I saw him get into his play car and he turned and told me, "Nicole, I go to Starbucks" lol I told him to go get me a frappucino. He smiled and continued playing. Cute kid eh lol.

His heart surgery is next friday. i'm not sure ill be able to blog that day or weekend but we will see what happens. I'll also post more info about it later.

It was crazzyyzyzy hot today. I hate hot weather. :p I'd rather live in the rain or snow. :D

Side note: when we got home my dad threw a rock at some mating cats....LULZZZZZZZZZZ

What's playing: Heartless-Kris Allen

#15 Like my shirt? I think it changed my life today.

I got a new shirt in the mail from the UK. Thanks to Johnny Durham : picture of me and the shirt on the side ------------------------------->
http://www.youtube.com/johnnydurham19 Youtube account

http://johnnydurham.com His website/blog

http://johnnydurhamclothing.com Where I got the shirt

http://www.twitter.com/JohnnyDurham19 His twitter

lol I just decided to just put all of his info.

Anywayz, I think the shirt changed my life today. Someone who had been ignoring me for a long time came up to me said hi and gave me a hug. There was a smile at my shirt. It was pretty funny and nice since im leaving school in 3 weeks or less.

Oh and thanks to Sara and Angelalala today for coming up to me and giving me a hug today:
Sara- http://www.youtube.com/prettyodd93
Angelalala- http://www.youtube.com/goodbyeblues93

I paid 4o for disney today woooooooooooooooot! Can't wait for the disney trip!

Shot another scene of my bully project video today where I almost get hit by a car by my bully. It took a couple of takes and I think it turned out okay. Monday is the ultimate scene...shooting..fake of course but should be good.

Overall today was a good day and should still continue to be good.

Love ya,
nicole

What's playing: Falling Slowly-Kris Allen
pretty sweet song. I hope Kris wins idol.

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

#14 WTP? (what the punch)

We basically went on a nature walk today. It was alright. :) We planted trees and basically just chilled. For lunch we got to have tortas,chips,and cookies which was pretty cool since lunches for field trips usually are just sack lunches from the cafeteria. When we got back to school we packed our school elevator with 13 kids..it was freakin scary..talk about near death experiences.

I also found out the disneyland price is only 40 bucks more now instead of 80 which is high but better than 80.

I wasn't as stressed out today...YAY! but I am still worried about my movie and powerpoint projects. UUUUUUUUUUUUUhhhh!! Sean is pretty much scaring me with our powerpoint our ideas are weird and idk if they are going to go over well.

I'm getting psyched for Disneyland though yesh. Its one of my favoritest places, I always feel relaxed there.

Even more randomness------------------ We invented a new way of driving which consists of dancing and letting the car steer itself.

Shout OUT to Thomnus aka Thomas for texting me today and getting a panda skateboard ENJOI - http://www.youtube.com/Thommmmassss

What's Playing: Yo Ho ( a pirates life for me)- Walt Disney Records. I'm getting ready for Disneyland plus I wore that shirt today :).

I'm going to go eat cereal now bye. <------ultimate diss thanks angelalala http://twitter.com/xangela_cortezx and/or http://www.youtube.com/goodbyeblues93

#13 Stress

Things that filled my day both good and bad:
Projects suck.
I want to go to Disneyland :( which means I need 80 bucks by Friday.
I have a stupid field trip tomorrow and I regret signing up.
People are annoying when they dont answer your questions
I is has cookies
I gave Angelalalahttp://www.youtube.com/goodbyeblues93 a dino pic hehe
Juan http://www.youtube.com/rodOHsanchOHhad a booboo
Lemonade
Going to see my Aiden
OY

I didn't feel much like writing today im just sort of stressed and yeah lol wishing my school/the people in it were smarter.

I gave out 60 bucks worth of checks today. Another 80 due this friday. Popsicle!

What's Playing: Truth of My Youth-New Found Glory

#12 What's the big deal about prom?

I chose not to go to prom therefore today turned out to be a pretty annoying day. Everyone seems to act like they care if I go or not. Like they will even notice. Prom, to me, sounds like a joke right now. I'd rather go on the Disneyland trip but it seems like its possible it could get cancelled or the price will rise all because of prom.

Reasons why I think our prom sounds dumb:
1. You have to pay 60 to 120 bucks
2. You have to go to (the place) on a school bus
3. You have to be surrounded by annoying people
4. The way they dance is mostly just sex with clothes on
5. The music will blow its being djed by a former student? (WTP) p=punch
6. My real buddies aren't even going

I didn't say those reasons to anyone but I said that Disneyland sounded way more fun but then that just led to the fact that I go there a lot. Which I do...because its fun. I know they're going to regret not going to Disneyland but oh well. Disneyland totally sux more than prom right :p (sarcasm). They said that they can go there anytime but can they go with there whole class? and have the park to there class for one whole night? and be able to go into places that are usually off limits? NO they can't. Excuse me for wanting to have fun at Disneyland than wanting to go dance with you.

I'm mad that one of my best buddies doesn't want to go to Disneyland and says prom is better. W/E.

What's playing: One Man Drinking Games-Mayday Parade

Old memories pretty much some lyrics are taken out because they don't apply. Here are the lyrics I like and make me remember.

And you said it would be funny
To keep me hanging in suspense
Then I'd run over to your house
And I'd scale the chain link fence
That borders your back yard
And then I'd climb through your window
And I'd whisper that I love you
And we'd lay there in the darkness
Like the dream of you I had
Where we captured all the fireflies
And we knew what time we had
Could be counted on our fingertips
That almost made you cry
You let me hold you tightly
As we said all our goodbyes

And may I say I loved you more
May I say I loved you more
And it must of been and hour
That I clutched you in my arms
And I must have said the right
Things because you instantly felt warm
And you heard my heart stop beating
And you wanted not to cry
As your sympathetic whispers
They told a tale of bad goodbyes
You swore you saw me laughing
And I swore I saw you smile
As the time we've spent together
Was meant to last us quite a while
As I take this piece of you with me I'll carry to my grave
And knowing that for someone
You're an angel sent to save(Keep Breathing my angel, if you go down I go with you. Keep breathing, just keep breathing.)
May I say I loved you more

Let's drink to memories we shared. Down one for all the hopes and cares. Here's two for being unaware that you're gone. Because before too long you'll be a memory

#11 Anticipation and other bittersweet emotions

Part 1:
The days are going by fast and graduation is coming up pretty quick. Projects,projects,projects. Update:
1. bully video needs 2 or 3 more scenes then we can edit.
2. government powerpoint barely got this assignment but we're planning it out and it seems like we're gonna do well on it.
3. new video to do for multimedia got an idea for it so we're doing ok I guess

Its basically a count down towards graduation now. We only have weeks left and I can't wait but then again I can. I'm sort of scared to graduate and I think I'm going to miss everyone immensely(sp) but oh well. Mostly I can't wait til we all get to go to Disneyland...fun times :).

Part 2: I lost 2 dollars playing speed today. :( ughhhhhhhhhhh.

Part 3: I can't wait for my muffin cloud shirt to come. I owe monies...dang it. http://johnnydurham.bigcartel.com/

Part 4: Vegetarianism
I love animals but being forced to hear there sounds of death all through my 6th period was really annoying. I'm ok with vegetarianism and personal opinions but leave my mchchickens alone :p. lol. I saw some of the videos of the cruelty of animals and I thought about why people even watch this. I know its good to be aware of these things but it seemed sort of sadistic to me idk. As I watched my class gather around the computer screen,eyes wide open, disgusted looks on there faces, it seemed sort of barbaric for them to be watching that but then again the killing of animals in such cruel ways is barbaric in itself. Animals should not be killed in such cruel ways but im not against eating them either. They do have different feelings than humans do,although the feeling of pain is still there, but I believe they are here not just for enjoyment but for us to eat.
Just my opinion.

This is really random today :)

What's playing: Sex Ed rocks- I set my friends on fire featuring Smosh.
Funny video. WATCH IT!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R_6ItxioUco

#10 Getting lost/into the wild/carnivore dance

Went to my grandparents ranch today. Me and my dad got there late and had to drive into the mountains in order to go help out my grandpappy at his new cabin. We got lost and ran into some people..I jokingly told my dad that I hope we dont get chainsawed out here in the wilderness lol. We finally made it to the cabin my granddads working on and it seems like a really cool project. Later on we drove back and had bbq with my peeps and swam in the river. Overall a good day and im tired. Short blog today. Oh well. I couldve gone on with this story but then you'll probably get bored.

AWWWWWWW Celebrity Apprentice!
I must go now.

Love you,
Nicole

What's playing: NOTHING just my dad watching Celebrity Apprentice without me in the background ARK!

9.5 oyo yo yoyoyoy oyyyyyyyy

I totally forgot to put what im listening to. I'm really tired and yah lol.

What's playing: Broken-Lifehouse

It's a good song I suggest YOU listen to it NOW!

#9 Flash Forward

So today I ended up going to a 50th year anniversary party. It was nice and kind of just relaxing. There was a lot of older people there that i've known since I was a kid. The anniversary couple used to live down the street from me when I was little and I remember them very well. There were people talking about remember whens and I started thinking about where I might be at in a couple of years. Will I get married? Or maybe be at a friends wedding? What if my buddies got married and I was left alone? So then I started thinking about all of that and how nice it would be to have my own 50th anniversary or be at one of my friends 50th in the future.

I haven't really been planning on getting married or being with someone but I never know what happens. My mind changes constantly and my decisions are never really certain unless they have to be.

I have high hopes for my future and all I know is that I plan on having my friends and family around me as long as I possibly can.

<3
Love you,
Nicole Maureen

#8 I smell like milk and apples :(

The bullying project continues and we filmed an interesting scene today. It was a scene I had to do with a friend of mine where she tosses my cafeteria food tray on me. We went 5th period got a tray full of apples (all they had left) and milk. My friend came up with the idea to pour milk on me after knocking my tray. I only agreed for the sake of the movie because I don't think its very great right now. So we did the scene and it turned out pretty good except I smelled like milk and apples for the rest of the day and my hair is sticky and stiff. :( After I am done I'm heading straight for the shower. I think I have plans with the guys later on and I backed out of other plans which I kinda feel bad doing but oh well.

I is hungry
I need a shower
My own smell is making me sick lol

Love you,
Nicoley

:)

What's Playing: Lazy Eye-Silversun Pickups

I've been waiting i've been waiting for this moment all my life but it's not quite right

everyone's so intimately rearranged

#7 The Never-ending amount of projects

The following weeks coming up...i've been told us seniors only have really 3 weeks left of school...are going to be freaking crazy. Wow, where has the time gone? I feel as if I haven't done enough and I didn't get to know enough people but I am going to miss everyone I have gotten to know. We all seem ready for it but part of us wants to keep each other close even though we know its time for all of us to move on with our lives already. Knowing these people since I was so young has made me attached to them and I really love having them around but I know its time for bigger and better things. Enough of that crap I still have three weeks.

These three weeks are really going to be filled with filming/editing for one project in my English class on bullying. Weird huh. It's been uhhh an interesting project to do but I am not really liking it so far. We have to many people in our project that just don't want to do it or are too busy to film. We're almost done with most of the scenes but I know editing is going to take up most of my time from now on. I also have video projects for my multimedia class and a powerpoint presentation for my government class. AWWWWWWWWW too many stinkin projects and I hate presentations.

I'm tired and really hungry. I didn't eat any lunch at all today and only stole a couple of cookies from Omar's house today so im pretty dang hungarry. I'm falling asleep while typing this and my eyes hurt for some reason.

I will complete this project along with the rest.

Yes I did get into Hogwarts. :). Make sure to send me an Owl.

Kthxbye

Love you,
:D <3

What's Playing:
Stellar-Incubus

#6 an ok day followed by my computers epic failure at life

Not much to report on at school today really. It was a normal day that wasn't very interesting. I had lunch with Juan and it was nice. McChickens and sweet tea :) yeye. We played a game in 6th period where we had to look up the ingredients of certain things at our local supermarket. It was cool and my group one.

My computer is a jerk.
My internet has a mind of its own and works when it feels like it.
I is tired.

Here's some random part of lyrics that I like right now:
Forever and Always- Taylor Swift

Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday
When I caught your eye
And we caught onto something,
I hold on to the night
You looked me in the eye and told me you loved me
Were you just kidding? 'Cause it seems to me

This thing is breaking down, we almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby, what happened? Please tell me
'Cause one second it was perfect
Now you're halfway out the door

And I stare at the phone and he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low, you can't feel nothin' at all
And you flashback to when he said, forever and always

Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest
That made you run and hide like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute
Now I'm not so sure
So here's to everything, coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute
But I don't anymore

Sorry for that lol..
What i'm listening to: Under Control- The Strokes

melancholyness #5? I think

School was a drag. I had a lot of things and people on my mind today. With only a few weeks left of school i'm wondering how to fix some of the relationships I have/had with people but im not sure how to go about doing this. I'll probably just say goodbye and leave it at that. I took a college placement test today and I did pretty good in English but definitely not math lol I totally suck at math. oh wellz. I've been listening to break-up songs a lot lately and im not sure why...I think my mind is trying to tell me that I miss someone but idk who it is. This is going to be a short blog today because I don't really feel like writing right now.

On a brighter note im hoping to get an awesome shirt..hopefully..and I got an email from johnnydurham19 on youtube so I thought that was cool that he actually replied. Nice guy. Anyways I think im going to watch some That 70's Show and forget about life for a while.

<3

What's Playing: Forever and Always-Taylor Swift

# 4.5

Sorry about the bad grammar and horrible writing today. My brain is burnt out and my body hurts. No its not the swine flu just a curse.

:)

What's Playing: Never Think- Rob Pattinson
I actually like this song and his singing...maybe im just weird I guess.

rant about ap test,death, and being sick :p #4

Ap test was today...and it sucked...I don't think I did very well on the free response at all but oh well its over with.

I went home early today from school but I felt totally miserable. 5th period I went to my teacher and asked if I could go home of course she asked me what was wrong but after that she asked if anyone was at home for me. She knew the answer so I do not even understand why she asked. I saw her realization of what she just said on her face and then she let me go. I wanted to ask her if she remembered that my mom had even died and if she could give me any tips on how to forget. People tend to forget your loss after such a short period of time either just caught up in their own lives or not caring enough about other peoples. I admit I did not think much about death or how it affected other people til it hit so close to home..literally. I am now able to empathize. I read in this book called The Pact I don't remember the author's name just that it was a woman. In the book one of the character's daughter had died and a friend says that she is sorry for her loss. The character than thinks to herself "They say loss as if I lost a shoe or a set of keys. They do not understand that the loss of a love one is a tragedy, a devastation, a hell." I think that is pretty much spot on but you can't really understand that until it happens to you. You may think oh yeah that is horrible and feel sorry for someone but no you don't understand.

When I had walked home and was just about to open door I remembered again that my mom would not be there. I remember this everyday and think about how I used to just shrug it off and say yah it was fine. I should have been more open, more honest but I wasn't. Feeling sick I laid down on the couch. The pain was intense and I screamed out. I remembered she wasn't there. She would have gave me a cold rag, turned on the fan, put a blanket over me and rub my head. I took all that time for granted and am urging you now not to. Never take your loved ones for granted.

Sorry about the rant about death it was just really on my mind at the moment.

What's Playing: West Coast-Coconut Records (thanks to High Stakes for showing me that song, and showing me a lot of great music)

#3 Tired ^_^

My aunt and my cousin have left. I had a good time with them and they both are laughs. It made me sad when they left since my little cousin will be going into isolation in order to be ready for his heart surgery coming up (i'll talk about that when it gets a little closer). My cousin is now into countdowns..they go something like this. 7 8 9 10 5 4 3 2 1 up up up up up down down down down down..its pretty funny idk where he got it from. I bought Baby Momma today and watched it..I love it...B**** I don't know your life! ..that part makes me crack up every time. I'm so tired and nervous about tomorrow. AP test but I so don't feel like studying. I think my brain has had enough of American Government for the moment. I now have to get ready to go look at our "might be house" we're not for sure yet if we have it or not bank crap and whatever..hopefully we'll get it..it's a really nice house I like it.

Graduation soon..wowza

Playing on Itunes: You Belong With Me-Taylor Swift
yah I listen to that so what. people really need to get over labels. especially music labels. country isn't all that bad. I like lyrics not screaming that I can't even understand.

Early Start/Family Fun #2.5

I forgot to mention that the reason we're going to dinner is for my grandparents anniversary. May 5th but we're getting an early start :). So happy anniversary! even though I know they don't read this or even use a computer lol but whatever.

Famous Daves all the way.


:)

What's playing on my Itunes: I changed the song to Two Way Monologue-Sondre Lerche

Early Start/Family Fun #2

Its about 9:30 in the morning and this will probably be the only time I have to write on my blog today so I am.

I like waking up and finding out that my family already planned out my day for me. Yesterday I said I would go to a party with some friends but it seems that my family had other plans in mind. Not that that is bad or anything, I like hanging out with them, but it's just sort of funny. So today I will be packing,cleaning,studying,going to dinner,taking care of my baby cousin,and hanging with my dad and aunt. Seems like a good day :). My baby cousin and aunt will be spending the night :) so thats always fun. Aiden (little cousin) enjoys waking up at 6 or 7 and watching blues clues nonstop. Good thing I actually like blues clues..I prefer Steve over Joe..but who doesn't. AP tests monday..aww.. im scared but really its just a test. No other news really. I'll let you know how things went on Sunday but it might be kinda late since I will be spending time with my family.

Let me know your plans for the day:)

talk to you tomorrow,
Nicole :) <3

What's playing on Itunes right now: Kissing Families-Silversun Pickups

Blog everyday in May begins. :) #1

Alright so today in sixth period I remembered that today was the first of May and that I promised myself I would do this so I am. Today in sixth period I also realized that I have a major issue with something. I was sharing a textbook with a friend of mine and she was called upon to read. We didnt know where the heck we were and a dude sitting next to us just kept yelling the word that we were supposed to start on. I thought to myself how does that even help? If you want us to find where to start you should tell us where to start. (sorry for that random piece of useless info and story but w/e I was just really annoyed).

Anyways, its the start of May and I already seem to be pretty busy this Month. My AP test is Monday so im being forced to study on a Saturday instead of taking some time off. I'm tired and pretty much just done with school but I would really like to graduate with honors. I need this semsester in order to qualify.

Talk to you tomorrow :),

Nicole <3

What i'm playing on Itunes at the moment: Thinking of You-Katy Perry
:(

Ideas?

So i've been thinking about this blogsite a bit and have decided that starting next month im going to blog everyday in may..kinda catchy eh.lol..not really but I think it would be something fun to do..pretty much for myself. May is going to be a very important and busy month for me. Trying to actually graduate, get my sash, take tests, do projects, and other family matters that are going to be going on. I feel that maybe blogging about these things will somewhat help me relax ( but it might even has just the opposite effect) but its worth a shot. I can always stop since I doubt many people will read this anyway.

Is blog everyday in May sound like a good idea? let me know either on youtube or in the comments below. ;)
KTHXBYE and much corn love.

First Blogs (The start of something new :p)

Well, I was told to make a twitter but decided to do this instead. I mean its exactly what I wanted to do (blogging) but mostly just writing because it is what I really enjoy. I was hoping to major in journalism but hey plans change and life gets turned upside down once in a while ^_^ oh wellz.

This is a short blog for today just getting a first one in on my new site.

KTHXBYE :)